Here We Go!

 There have been a lot of changes since I have last shared pieces of my life. The first change is that my Facebook Page got disabled the day after I bought a new phone. It was weird. I hardly post anything on there. I’m mostly on there for school stuff, my photography business, photos and keeping in touch with my family. The only thing I could think of is that I joined a bariatric site and somehow, someone didn’t like it. 

The second change in my life is that I’m working on losing weight. My goal weight is 130-135. I am currently at 282.2 as of today. My starting weight was 287.5. I am waiting for confirmation that I can undergo bariatric surgery with the gastric sleeve. This has been weighing on my mind for a long time and I think that I can fulfill that need now. I am very excited and nervous for what this journey will bring. I am excited because I have a wonderful support system. My family is on board in helping in me and my best girlfriend has had it done so she is in my corner too. My husband is not as supportive because he doesn’t think that I can do it. I plan to disappoint him in that area because I know that I can.

I have been obese since before I was 10 years old. The spring before my 10th birthday, my mom introduced me to weight watchers. For my sister’s 8th birthday, I got a weight watchers boston cream pie instead of the cake that everyone else was eating. This starting my battle with gaining and losing weight. It also started my battle with food addiction and emotional eating. It has been a long agonizing path that I have take in the past 33 years. I wouldn’t change anything about my journey to the weight I am today. If I had changed anything, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Now that my kids are all grown up and I am working on taking care of myself more, I am eating better and starting to work out in my little garage gym. I’m drinking more water. I am feeling better about myself. Because of that I am confident that I can achieve success with the gastric sleeve bypass. 

I know that I will always have the temptation to buy and eat the foods that I don’t need or shouldn’t have. I also know that I am gaining a higher tolerance to not buy it or eat it. Because of this, I believe that I am a good candidate for this surgery. I am ready to get going. Hopefully this referral is going to go through quicker than it has been so far. I’ve been waiting for a month already for the referral to go through. THe doctor’s office is slow at getting referrals out because of the fact that they didn’t have any referral technicians that are able to work on them. This is the frustrating part because I want to get this going. 

So this is me, I hope you have a fantastic day!