Time at Tim's

I have started a bad habit. I guess it isn't as bad as habits that some people have. There is a coffee shop in town where I've been frequenting twice a week lately. I usually just buy a coffee an sit and read a book or my Bible or work on something writing wise that needs to be done. I enjoy my "me" time. There are times that I have invited others to join me but it seems that I am destined to be alone in my time here. It saddens me to think those who I have felt that I was close to, aren't as close as I thought. It seems that although I have always put others needs before my own, I've lost myself along the way and because of that, I have lost friends too. How did that happen? How did I get wrapped up in my own little world and forget all about other people who I thought at one time, were my friends? How can I change this? I invited several ladies to join me tonight. But once again, here I sit all alone, by myself writing this blog in Tim Hortons. At least I have my coffee and a sweet treat to keep me company. At least they don't talk back..... Yet.